.is tiz wadx i wan?

life as usual....enj0y my sunday...w0ke up in d earli m0rnin at 6plus...den went t0 sha0 m00...was 0kie...den manage t0 get t0 g0 makan breakfast wibb my c0usin...after tat g0dfather was askin whether we wanna t0 g0 swimmin s0 we went swimmin at my g0d ah g0ng hse...miie...dens0n...my br0 and cute lil`ll sister and g0dfather was playing l0...haas..bery fun...my t00pid g0dfather use ball t0 try miie...den is lik miie,br0 and g0dbr0 l0ng tym neber gather t0gether le...last tym is c0ng xia0 wan da0 da de best c0usin...everytym g0 his 0ld hse t0 t0n den play 0ne...hist0ry le...s0 fast...we tw0 16yrs 0ld lia0s while my br0 14...yeahs....

t0day ah...less0n as usual....my clz seems t0 be h0peless...teacher seems t0 be like g0nna t0 gibb up 0ur clz s00n...g00shh...wadx am i g0in t0 d0 man....

tmr muz stay backie f0r ge0g less0n...yupp...i t0ld ling abt tw0 sk00l matter tat make my life is a mess....yyeahs...is tiz wadx i wan?is tiz my life...n0 matter wadx i muz study hard....17! i wan 17!btw.hear fr0m peeps s0me peeps sayin wanna t0 quit np at tiz level...c0me 0n la...st0p t0kin such crab....wake up and be mature...since u wan t0 quit why d0n u tell 0qn squadmate instead 0f 0thers and ppl are askin miie...shut the hell up...tat`s my c0mment...

and my c0m is s0t...cann0t 0pen my f&n research!!! WTH!!!!

if tym c0uld tym i`ll h0ld 0n...
((_.yingx._)) i`m n0t tat ger u kn0e in the past anym0re[HUI BU QU DE C0N9 QIAN] if tym c0uld ST0P,i`ll H0LD 0n t0 u _.MIRACLE._

_.wo.nan.guo._

._.w0 nan gu0._.

bl0ggin...
listenin t0 tat s0ng..
mem0ries start t0 c0me...
yeahs...
and tat was d hist0ry 0f my life...
but will n0t be erase...
neber...

t0day went t0 cp t0 study..
did asb0rd and did learn s0me chem...
haas...
yyeahs..
glad tat i did learn new things...
actualli meetin frdd...
but in d end...
i was at tm de sg...
haas...
nice part is tat i realli luff lik crazy?
c0z 0f the mahj0ng day de j0ke..
tat hua zhu ge ge...
i was lik s0 retarded l0...
tat was the best luffer i get after tat tym de pugg0l park ba...
yyeahs...

saw tat w0rd naive...
rmb tat tym...
hist0ry again...
tym flies...

say again nxt tym...
sing al0ng sessi0n is 0n...
hais...

saturday...

went to yahoo grp...
saw the new foto?
hhaas...
their nco shirt is nice man....
don knoe why i prefer tat one...
=xXx....
saw until the yum seng....
let miie tot of the honey water...
=))
gtg...
g0ne-

s i c k

yeahs...still sick...yuppie...days were as usual....t0day is a h0liday...went t0 sun tec wibn ling c0z she repairin her f0ne...budden reach dere the repair centre cl0ze lia0s...la0...haas...den went walk walk...den wait f0r the f0untian...budden waited f0r bery l0ng nth c0me 0ut...la0...t00k mrt t0 pz...went dere f0r dinner....bery tired...t00k f0t0...tat machine bery funnie...haas...f0t0s can say n0t bad barh? haas...=))

tmr n00n g0in 0ut t0 study...den after tat meetin frdd... shld be t0day de l0...t0day is my frdd bday...budden t00 busy...cann0t...haas...s0 tmr l0...yyeahs...l00kin f0rward t0 tmr...can study...realli habb tat m00d t0 study le...did finish my maths hmwk le..g0nna t0 buck up m0re..yeyahs...

den pass few days i kana pinich den n0w g0t blue black le l0..pain l0...tat 38la0...g0nna t0 tk revenge s00n...whahah...=xXX

studyin tym...n0 m0re tym left f0r miie t0 play le...jia y0u...

((._die-ing s00ner 0r later._))

g0nna t0 die s00n...
i`m tired...
still have f&n t0 finish...
and n0w h0w am i feelin n0w?
feelin lik i am as if on a kay long hse...
floatin and feelin giddy...
not feelin well...
sick....
hais...
who can cure miie...
today went to the newater tingy...
sat on the bus...
tinking of the past...
memories....
rmb every outin...
oley will be bery high...
sing song...
say shout...
sing song lik...
wo nan guo,without ur love,ni zhe mo she de wo nan guo etc..
tat was the past...
i miss it lots...
the last tym was atc ba...
am i rite?
hmmm....
i miss tat feelin lots while i`m on bus...
den today five of us...
miie,derek,fulin,mac and mark...
shout sec 4 cheer...
5 of us shout until lik mad...
haas....
fun man...
den "rehear" muster parade...
haas...
so fun...
nice,fun and swit moment doesn`t last long....
yuppie....
told yuan i lik to step down budden bu she de...
maybe i will...
but most prob is no..
bu she de...
i oso don knoe...
mixed feelin...
squad is driftin...
yuppie...
i`m g0nna to die...
goin to rest...
realli cannot ta han anymore...
not feelin bery well now...
hais..
hui bu qu de cong qian....

it`s my life

life was as usual...
sk00l re0pen t0day...
puttin 0n a mask in d earli m0rning...
d0n kn0e wadx t0 say...
juz wearin a happy mask thr0ugh 0ut d wh0le day...
6 peeps j0ined my clz...
den n0w is a clz 0f 35 peeps?
s0 mani...
yuppie...
last few days i did update...
but juz d0n kn0e whyy l0ad until half hang..
zhu ding de ba?
yyeahs?
maybe zhu ding miie myself kn0e jiu ha0...
yuppie...
den kana ji sia0 by ah yang...
kip call miie carl0s..
la0 l0...
*arghs*
n0w muz study study study..
c0z mum went t0 tk my rep0rt bk...
teacher 0nli say abt p00r in eng..
yuppie...
tat`s all...
g0nna t0 rest...
tmr muz chi0ng chi test and fnn lia0s...
sians...
life sux lik hell...
listenin t0 sha0 nian...
hui bu qu de c0ng qian....

an0ther meaninful s0ng...
Tong HuaMichael Wong (Wang Guang Liang)
wang le you duo jiu
zai mei ting dao ni
dui wo shuo ni zui ai de gu shi
wo xiang le hen jiu
wo kai shi huang le
shi bu shi wo you zuo cuo le shen me
#
ni ku zhao dui wo shuo
tong hua li du shi pian ren de
wo bu ke neng shi ni de wang zi
ye xu ni bu hui dong
cong ni shuo ai wo yi hou
wo de tian kong xing xing dou liang le
*
wo yuan bian cheng tong hua li
ni ai de na ge tian shi
zhang kai shuang shou
bian cheng chi bang shou hu ni
ni yao xiang xin
xiang xin wo men hui xiang tong hua gu shi li
xin fu he kuai le shi jie ju
Repeat # and *
wo yao bian cheng tong hua li
ni ai de na ge tian shi
zhang kai shuang shou
bian cheng chi bang shou hu ni
ni yao xiang xin
xiang xin wo men hui xiang tong hua gu shi li
xin fu he kuai le shi jie ju
wo hui bian cheng tong hua li
ni ai de na ge tian shi
zhang kai shuang shou
bian cheng chi bang shou hu ni
ni yao xiang xin
xiang xin wo men hui xiang tong hua gu shi li
xin fu he kuai le shi jie ju
yi qi xie wo men de jie ju

`x_i miss camp

hmmm...g0t back from camp ytd nite....slowly say bout camp ba....

14.0.3.2oo5
0n sun nite...didn`t slp well....turn and turn on my bed onli manage to get sum slp at bout 4plus...den kn0e wadx....earli morning i overslpt....i woke up onli at 7 when i habb to reach skool by 730???? goosh....i quickly jump out of my bed and went to habb a quick bath...after tat quickly wake my mum up to get money for my cab fare...luckily at my hse downstairs de carpark tat tym g0t cab...den lucky uncle is goin out...so he drive miie to my destination...heng sia...reach sk00l al0mst all of them reach lia0s le...budden i`m n0t the lastest...haas...lucky..den put all our back in boi bunk fiz...den yonglin refresh wadx activity and tings tat we`re gonna to do today...after tat got tuition de went for their tuition...den don habb one we do the stuff l0...den i do flagstuff and tie until hand got l0ts 0f 5ocents and one dollar...den went to make wardens walk...make sucide window...den after lunch we were goin t0 qi flagstuff...tings start to happened...3 jie de flagstuff bcome 2jie 0nli...d0n wan t0 say why...we 0urself kn0e jiu ha0...den my hand de shui ba0 cann0t ta han...pu0 dia0...went t0 find boon hao...

den he put the don knoe wadx ting on my hand...hao was acc miie...den boon hao ask miie pain not pain not...at fiz i kip sayin no...budden suddenly he ask pain anot again i said pain and tears started to roll down...he got shocked and hao oso...den start to say lots of ting...yupp....den we manage to do finish all the stuff b4 the bbq starts...got to change to hse shorts and slipper...tt was the k00l ting...c0z wearin treack pants is t0talli h0t! and l0tter ar0und...listen t0 s0ng...miie and gina bery fan...start t0 sing l0ud l0ud....den walk walk and t0k t0k...den 6plus t0 7plus...ting da0 0ne s0ng tat make miie damn sad...which is wo nan guo...den l0ts 0f ting start t0 c0me..went t0 sit at 0ne side...t0t 0f life in np fr0m sec 1 till n0w t0 j0celyn...t0lda her and 0s0 t0t 0f wadx we did t0day...den miss lim c0me and t0k t0 miie 0s0...last tym i use t0 dislik her l0ts...but i change my point of view now...and is lik tok and tok..after tat 745 we nid to board...ahem ahem...onli we oley knoes...haas...den start to listen to story....after finish story miss lim came..and tok to us...and wan us to say bout ting tta we are not happi abt...she ask miie to say...i start to say lots of stuff...lots and lots...den say until tears started to roll down....even my squadmate...the gers...all xcept gina..den guys opp miie...can see from their face...is lik ya...tat feeling...after tat we shouted out oley cheer...can hear tat we`re back again...

yupp...den start wibb bbq...tings got better....den g0 f0r sh0wer....and nite walk try out...and den hmmm makan...ate until 1am...was tokin along all the way...cup noodles is nice...honey water is nice...coz i findin cup for it..den cannot find...den cannot find jiu don wan to drink lo...but ah ong force miie to carry the h0ney up wibb him den make honey water...coz my voice realli lik ah du le...den chicken wings is nice...realli bery nice....thx tat person for sittin in front of the oven to make the chicken wings...yuppie...den slpt at 1plus...mattress is hard....yyeahs....

15.o3.2oo5
fiz day of camp le...sec 1 came...sec2 came...sec3 came..den mornin took tradition fotos?haas...yupp....start off wibb flagstuff..quarrel wibb ahem...yupp...budden got better when we heard until ppl shout np sux and we l00k up ant stared real hard....haas...tat`s np peeps...flagstuff make miie rmb sharon and j0celyn...yyeahs...fun wibb dem...whole morning had my campcraft session..can say fun....den after tat was lunch...after lunch i was preparin firewoods...yupp...tings happened....don wixh to say here....yupp...ate my dinner until bery xin ku..almost vomit...eat until bery du lan oso...den nco gather as shijia got ting to say...wadx she said is realli meaninful...my water bottle...dey took it to use and rub away my name..haas...nvm...the water bottle story is meaninful...will rmb it forlife...den drank the honey water...start wibb campfire...campfire sux...budden the five macho express the npcc life...haas...is nice...mr yeo singin is good...yupp....den after campfire wad shijia ssaid is rite...memories will stay on...and tiz is the honghan say to miie...huiying well done...realli touched..but as for campfire...onli one word can describe...sux... den nite walk...got stranger came into our skool...we carried batons along durin nite walk...den i was same grp wibb mark...tok about sum stuff...den xia the sec1...wun forget which nco scare miie fiz de...victor...haas..realli jump lo...den jiafa wan t0 scare us tat tym kang ha0 i was restin my eyes...when i open tat tym he alreay do finish his action lia0s den he la0..haas...den b00n ha0 0s0..nite walk quite fun...cx bery funnie...he ask dem for number in weird weird manner...

after nite walk,went f0r sh0wer and slp...rrealli cann0t ta han...head was goin t0 burst...den once i lie down i straightaway fell aslp...den neber hear until anyting...yupp...

16.o3.2oo5
last day of camp...realli not feelin well...head pain until lik mad....giddy...can see miie walkin is weird weird manner....den do all the stuff....area cleaning....wash toilet...everytym after camp my duty sure is toilet one...haas...fav la...=xXx...den break camp...so fast...3 days so fast jiu over lia0s...sadd...after tat went to chopm chomp for dinner...weird feelin...don knoe....yupp...reach home...at fiz gonna to go out one...budden hear until the topic dey gonna to tok abt i juz say...hmmm...i`m not goin...yupp....i miss camp...

today...woke up onli at 2pm...haas...slpt at 10 ytd nite...is fell aslp..watch teebee until half and i fell aslp...too tired....i miss camp...camp is over...how i wish tym can turn back...gonna to write down wad happened durin tiz camp in byer detailed....tmr dere`s np...though don lik but goin...coz bery long bery long neber habb np in earli morin le! miss tat 62 which is full of npcc ppl! den luffer and tokin! haas....yyeah...i miss my squad...but tmr dere gonna be a debrief for camp...long one ba? den face and neck got sun burn...not nose puo bi lia0s...pain sia...haas...listenin to dao dai....wish to go back to last tym....wish to habb a longer camp..rrealli...

wwiishin.uup0n.tthe.sstars:
wishtogetyououtformystorybutijuz
cantbringmyselftodotat
thoughiknoeisnotworthwaitinforyou
butijuzdonknoewhyicannotgetuoutofmy
lifehaistoopigenufftolikyouforsolong

-s-h-a-g-

yawn...th0ugh slp al0ts...but still tat tired...t0day stay at h0me t0 r0t...c0z still havin headache...den bery tired ah...shag....tmr havin np...muz reach sk00l by 7am...h0pe i wun 0verslpt again...yupp...

plannin t0 d0 sth...but haben d0...h0pe t0 c0mplete by nxt week...yyeah...=))my n0se sun burn al0ts 0f skin c0me 0ut le sia...jialat le l0...bcumin m0re and m0re black lia0s...haas...juz crappin...mind is shut d0wn lia0s...wanna t0 slp le.....wanted t0 bl0g m0re de...tmr ba...

wishin up0n the stars...
h0wiwishtatthecampwillgoonforafewmoredaysdenn0wwillbehavinsupperandgonnato
belightsoffsoonhaastinkintoomuchle
iwantogetuoutofmystoryrealliiratherseeugettinurownhappinesscozlikttiwillgiveupeasier
thoughiamderetocareforuandconcernabtubutudoesntseemtofeeltatdonknoewadtodo
nothinmoretosaytiredshagandiamtoonaive

listenin ti my fav.rang wo zhao gu ni

(( _naive.ger_ ))

`x_camp

hmmm....6 m0re hrs g0nna t0 wake up f0r my camp...haas...here am i...n0t g0nna t0 slp yet...finalli...pack finsih all my stuff at 1130pm...yupp...g0t all tings ready...excited abt the camp? abt ba...n0 feelin? 0s0 abit ba...meetin ha0 tmr at 620...tat means 610 i muz get up lia0s....

will n0t be at h0me f0r 3 days...w0nderin whether will i enj0y the camp man...and my mum f0rce miie t0 bring medicine g0...haas...she put in a b0x f0r miie and place it at my c0m table...iy0...al0ts 0f t0ts f0r tiz campsia...fiz camp we are c0nductin...will it be fine? will dere be quarrel? all s0rts 0f questi0n c0min t0 miie...scare scare feelin...den saw my c0m de bag..l0ng tym neber g0 camp le...last camp was nati0nal camp 0r atc? yyeahs...s0 l0ng le..abt half yr ag0 de matter de....tym realli flies....and fly bery bery fast...cherish all the tym....

d0n feel lik slpin...d0n kn0e well...scare cann0t get t0 slp..juz lik tat tym de nc0 camp..the nite b4 i cann0t get t0 slp...t00 nerv0us abt camp le...t0t 0f th0se days till n0w ish lik...i habb changed s0 much...fr0m a sec 1 t00t t00t de change t0 a sec 4 ger lia0s...4 yrs in np...4 in sk00l...g000sh...fast...listenin t0 l0ts 0f s0ngs...wu ding f0r nite..t0t 0f p0p...haas...kute lil`ll kid at tat tym...

d0n kn0e wadx t0 say le...g0nna t0 sh0wer and r0t le...c0z n0b0dy 0nline t0 crab wibb...yupp...haas...recived msg fr0m yuan..askin miie t0 tk care...c0z i`m sick and habb s weak b0dy...t0uched...realli...i l0ve my gerfrdds l0ts....i d0...=))

-all d best t0 my fell0w squadmate....s0 fast...we`re nc0 le...tym flies...fiz tym preparing f0r a camp...can see tat we`re realli puttin in eff0rt f0r tiz...lik 0ur y0nglin...bery stress...th0ugh we d0 quarrel...but we`re still a squad...tings will be fine after the camp....h0pe everyting will be sm00th...den d0n kn0e dey will get t0 slp ma...y0nglin w0rse 0ne..sure wun get enuff slp de...haas...i wan t0 spend tiz 3 days wisely...c0z i kn0e it will pass bery fast...n0...is bery bery bery fast....d0n wan it t0 pass s0 fast man.... cherish the tym! 0ley squad!!!!!

0ley r0x!!!

-as f0r myself...still tat sad....yyup..listenin t0 the reas0n...hmmm...widh t0 tell u tat...budden d0n tink s0 much ba...enjoy myself at camp can lia0s...h0pe tat miie tiz failure wun cry durin tiz camp...yes...realli...

wishin up0n the stars.....

n0thin t0 say

hmmm...neber bl0g f0r quite l0ng f0r b0th bl0g lia0s....life is still the same...ish juz tat bery busy...c0z leisure camp is c0ming...which is tmr...s0 fast...tat tym is 17 days m0re t0 the camp but n0w...is juz tmr....yyeahs...den tiz week everyday after sk00l 0s0 np...np and np...yyeahs...den is lik hmmm....tmr is the camp lia0s...bu xiang s0 fast jiu camp....c0z camp tym flies...d0n wan t0 habb such sh0rt m0ment...yuppie....

ytd went t0 mall t0 buy bbq stuff den went walk walk and play play....budden i neber t0n...c0z fri nite i t0n until 6 in d m0rning and sum0re i n0t feelin well lerrs...s0 decided t0 walk h0me fr0m upper c0urt de bust0p all al0ne? yingx bec0me s0 brave sia...haas....den reach h0me i juz r0t and st0ne awhile and went t0 bed...t00 tired...

tmr is the camp....hmmm....n0t l00kin f0rward actualli...d0n kn0e well....maybe sick ba...g0t flu,c0ugh,s0re th0art....yupp...den is lik...0s0 feelin sad...c0z after camp...will the squad be as 0ne? my squad hab been quarrellin and crying 0ver the camp stuff....hais...i d0n wan my squad t0 be separate....yes...we might be attitude t0 0ne an0ther and we d0 care f0r the rest?
listenin t0 w0 nan gu0...g0t l0ts 0f meaning t0 miie...and i g0nna t0 burn int0 disc f0r ap nite...h0pe we will w0rk t0gether as 0ne tmr...we`ll n0t kana tekan by ci and we`ll n0t be slack? h0pe s0...

w0rried abt campfire nite...habin such v0ice n0w h0w t0 survive durin camp....g00sh....hmmmm....felt tat....th0ugh sumtym i d0 hate u but when i see until u i d0n kn0e why i juz cant bring myself t0 hate u...and bside hatin u hmmm...ya...private...yyeahs....g0in t0 sh0wer and g0in t0 grandma hse...mum ask miie t0 st0p 0ne m0nth tuiti0n fiz...yyeahs....den t0day is grandpa bday...s0 will be celebratin it...gtg...bl0g t0nite after i habb pack finish my bag....

ihateyouforeverbutijuzcantbringtatexpressioninfrontofyouimyselfosodonknoewhy

` sick....